Sometimes I really hate myself; hate myself for being so flirty and not giving a fuck about others, for letting my brain think that no one in the world cares for me or still believing him when he said no one would love me cuz I’m a spoiled good :( I fuck shit up a lot; I deserve to be left to myself and never be happy, I deserve what I get coming to me; and yet somehow I don’t seem to learn or change
So I’m without Internet for 8 days, been 2 days so far and I’m dying, currently I am at work stealing Starbucks free wifi (thank Jesus Christ they have free wifi) so if someone’s willing to let me live with them for the remainder of the week is appreciate it :)
Me: what now?
Anxiety: Nothing, just wanted to worry you today.
Anxiety: Hey your boyfriend/girlfriend didn't text you back, they're probably with someone else right now.
Anxiety: Oh your best friend hasn't spoken to you today either. They're probably sick of your shit.
Anxiety: Your parents said they're really proud of you..do you honestly believe that?
Anxiety: Where do you see yourself in a year? Oh wait, you can barely get through a day!
Me: ...shut up.
Anxiety: Will you ever rise to anything?
Me: Shut up!
Anxiety: Or are you always this pathetic? Lol
Me: Why can't you leave me alone!?
Anxiety: Because messing with your head is what I live for.